My Chance To Become A Father
My chance to become a Father also led to the biggest mistake of my life.
Sometimes the biggest mistakes in life come to realization long after they occur.
I had just turned 22 and living in the East Bay of the San Francisco Bay Area. I had just gotten out of the Air Force and the dot-com was in full effect. Having just moved to California to live with a beautiful girl I’d met while on temporary duty assignment (re-hab for alcohol and underage drinking).
She’d been my penpal and best friend while I went through my bogus prosecution for drugs and subsequent kangaroo trial that netted me 9 months in military confinement.
I’d written her letters almost every week. She once visited me at Mirimar Air Force base as I was about 2 months from being out.
When I got out she flew to meet me in San Antonio and stayed with me at my Grandma’s house. Looking back she gave me everything she had.
When we finally got out to California I was like Tupcac “fresh outta jail California dreamin'” All I wanted to do was go out and explore aka party, do drugs (MDMA) and live the rap video life.
Being the good girl that she was all she wanted to do was settle down and have kids.
Fast forward a few rocky months and she tells me she’s pregnant.
My first instinct was to get rid of it. I wasn’t ready to be tied down. I honestly don’t know WTF I was thinking back then.
What ever it was it led me to the biggest mistake in my life – I influenced her to get an abortion.
**Saving grace is that she is now married with one (maybe two) kids
Retrospect and Learning
Looking back it led me to want to write a letter to all fathers to tell them how much of a gift it is to have kids and that despite the relationship with the Mother – the responsibility is to the little human being that looks like you.
A Letter To All Fathers
Dear Fathers of the World,
Congratulations on becoming a Father. Whether you know it or not, the burden is heavy upon your shoulders.
In an ideal world you would have a loving, supportive, feminine woman to help you raise that child.
But the reality of today’s world is that ideal situation is becoming more and more rare.
I offer this one piece of advice:
Do your best to be there for the child. Don’t let your relationship with the Mother, if it’s not ideal, give you an easy way out of your responsibility to ensure that child has the best possible chance for success.
The father is the foundation for any child. They represent authority, hard work, communication, and leadership to the child.
This is what I ask of you.
You have a great gift. A gift and opportunity that many covet. As the decline accelerates it is more important than ever to be present and influential in that child’s life.
My best wishes.
Knowing my true purpose in this world I can say it wouldn’t bother me if I didn’t end up having kids.
I’ve accepting this might happen already.
As long as my word gets out and people resonate with it – that is my reward.
I realized long ago that there is such a thing – really the only thing that matters – called Natural Law.
If I have some price to pay in this life or at the gates of the next, I will accept my punishment for ending a beautiful life through that abortion.
The real pain is knowing I could have had the thing I wanted most in the world, but I was too young and reckless to realize it until it was too late.
I’m writing this so that some young man out there stumbles upon this site and whether directly or indirectly does not make the same mistake.
They will be reading this 5 years from now and maybe in the same situation, and maybe this is what tips him the other way.
Life is so beautiful
I understand that a lot of pregnancy situations here in the United States are unwanted. That most dudes bail and leave the mother to be a single mother.
I also realize it has a lot to do with females lacking agency and being just as reckless.
But if you’re reading this and have the same decision in front of you – please take from my story what you will.
Just know that the lifetime of “what-if’s” will come back to haunt you.
For the fathers that are out there – you have my utmost respect if you are present in that child’s life in a positive way.
I think it is one of the hardest things these days for men to be real fathers, without all of the SJW political correctness we see.
So celebrate life and celebrate your kids. They are the future of this crazy planet and our best hope for survival of our species.